i hate it so much
writer, editor, translator, hag //
alles ist anders. alles ist neu. alles ist schön //
i hate it so much
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you are the kanye line ‘i forgot better shit than you ever thought of’
i like running at night when the sweat cools on my neck and people pass me in the other direction and their faces are pale discs and i like it when everything is rhythmic, tonight i listened to my sun is your sun / your sun is our sun over and over again , i thought of a lot of writing things but they disappear if i can’t write them down straight away, something about boys looking at marks where knicker elastics were on girls’ bums and school ovals and kids toeing stones beneath the drive-through bottle shop sign but i don’t remember shit now
"god bless our love"
sue’s last ride - dirty three [live on recovery 1998]
CT’s emails to me are always warm, short, only ever one line about what she’s doing. you have to get her in person for that. she always asks me, what’s happening with that novel of yours. she’ll offer to make introductions, gently, and i’ll refuse, gently.
i sent it to so-and-so. she was really nice about it but she rejected it. i’ll explain, briefly, the editor’s justification. C’s always so indignant. she’s always in my corner about it, no matter who the editor is. i just think that’s nuts.
once she said something so kind about me, but to someone else, and it got back to me the way kind things do amongst kind people, and it was praise such that i swallowed it and couldn’t repeat it to anyone. but i let myself think about it sometimes like i let myself think about other ridiculous fantasies. she’s good to me and so are all my writing pals, i got lucky
i went shopping aGain. sorry
i have a lot f stuff to do and i should go home after work and do it and go for a run but i just still want to go shopping. i’m trying to conjure up a justification but all i can think is i made broccoli and cheese soup and brought it to work today and that was good forward-thinking life planning which i never do so i need some positive reinforcement
i liked dancing to this song over and over again last night. this is not my favourite metric record but it’s a p good one. i like how she sings “i’m a lazy dancer / when you move i move with you” because it reminds me of that line “cold as numbers but let’s dance / as though it were easy for you to lead me / i could be passive gracefully” in calculation theme which is one of my favourite metric songs